Hello again folks, it looks as though I’ve failed to meet my mandate of reviewing this past season of Game of Thrones (a tremendous season, tremendous! Believe me!) But, I’m finally clearing my blog of digital cobwebs. I find that I have lost interest in writing show reviews, if not interest in writing in general. This entry will serve as both an update and (another) self reflection piece.
When this blog first began I was still half using it a digital diary, and half using it to review media I enjoyed. This trend had continued from 2012 to about late 2016. I was still fresh out of college in 2013, torn between my engagement ending and seeing my Journalism career make an early burn out after I was laid off from the local paper. I was hell bent on finding another relationship to fill a void in my heart. I also tried to fill that void by following my dreams of being a musician, but things fell through with both of my bands in 2016.
Fast forward to this year, after being a crappy boyfriend to a few other women by being too emotionally selfish, and tired of making people worry about me with long and emotional Facebook rants, I finally decided to accept that being single isn’t a bad thing. I may learn to truly enjoy the bachelor life someday, but not hating it is a good enough step in the right direction for now.
My overall point with this blog entry is that though I feel like a failure due to all of these setbacks I’ve suffered, I also never truly gave up on following my dreams or on living. My dream now is to be a broadcast personality for politics and music (which often go hand in hand).
I am going to write about what interests me moving forward, but I’m not going to keep making huge promises I won’t be able to keep either. I know I’m not guaranteed success in life anymore, and while that thought is sobering, it’s also comforting to acknowledge knowing that I’m only human.
This picture is how it feels sometimes when you have depression and have to deal with small talk day after day.
Some people with depression have to deal with their affliction every day of their lives, and people without depression often downplay their experiences out of naivety. Not only is it downright annoying, it’s borderline Ableist.
I’m not saying that differently abled folks should declare open war on small talk. What I am saying is that able bodied and neurotypical people should take care with how they talk to their loved ones with depression or other neuro divergent “disorders”.
This is how a typical exchange of small goes with me sometimes:
Them: “How was your day?”
Me: “My day was a downer, how was yours?”
Them: “Why was it a downer?? You should be happy that you have so much going for you! I wish I was 26 again! Other people have things so much worse than you do! Seize the day! Carpe Diem!!!!!”
Me: “Deprssion doesn’t need a rhyme or reason, it just happens.”
*Proceeds to walk away from the conversation.*
This is why many people just lie and say their day was, “Good, how was yours?”
I’m just tired of answering the question either way because of the probing and dismissing that happens aftewards. I’m aware that this is a first world problem as far as social issues go, but I’m not being unreasonable in asking people to be more mindful with how they talk to their neuro divergent friends and family.
on days we are but fractions. – http://wp.me/p4SMTM-2Hr I love the drawing textures and what I perceive to be the deeper meaning of not letting just our actions define us.
Go give my college buddy a like and a follow, he’s a talented writer with very honest views on life. He’s also a skilled poet.
*Spoiler warning: warnings of spoilers that are now two weeks old. Game of Thrones latest episode will be on in less than an hour, and I did a good job in keeping up with those deadlines…*
Self criticizing sarcasm aside, these latest episodes have had amazing writing with incredibly dissapointing plot points for the protagonists of story. GRRM is skilled at creating great characters and then making them falter in incredibly dissapointing ways (other than just killing them off, that is).
As always, I see no point in plot sumarries given that these episodes have been out a while. I may start plot summaries again once I find the time to write weekly reviews rather than bi-weekly reviews though. Anyways, here’s what I enjoyed and didn’t enjoy.
What I enjoyed: It was very nice to see the two things Ramsay fears; men more powerful than him and the prospect of marriage to end his little play world. It was also nice to see Tyrion returning to his oldself while he spoke to that prostitute treating her like an actual human being rather than a tissue. I’m fond of seeing Jaime Lannister trying to do right by his children and rescue his daughter from the serious danger she’s in. Lastly, I think Staniss is a better character now than he was in all of the previous seasons with how he’s trying to liberate the north.
What I didn’t like: Seeing Sansa being married to Ramsay would give me menstrual cramps if I were a woman. Like seriously, it’s stressing me out to think of how bad things have been for Sansa and how much worse they could be being married to the biggest sociopath in all of Westeros. I believe Ramsay to be the literary incarnation of George RR Martin’s hatred of his fans demands for more happy endings. I also hate how fucking evil Cersei has become since I was hoping that the High Sparrow subplot would be used to redeem Cersei, instead she just used the Faith Militant to further her goals for power. I don’t think Cersei’s daughter should be hurt, but I wouldn’t mind seeing the Dornish overthrow her rule. Lastly, I’m unsure if Ser Barristen is actually dead, but I won’t hold my breath given how many characters die in this show.
I’m often told people have a love/hate relationship with Game of Thrones, and I can see why. GOT is a great show, but not for those who love happy endings. I like happy endings, but I also like something different. Game of Thrones is one of those different shows that I will keep watching, always.
Here’s hoping Theon regains his something of his sannity, but I think he’s also better off being disconnected from reality the way he has been lately as well. Time (and book spoilers) shall tell.
Being that I once unsuccessfully tried to become a power blogger I feel like this post resonates with my personality, especially since I’ve been a self proclaimed procrastinator since middle school.
An insightful and touching piece, also one that raises a good question. Personally, I sympathize with people like Maynard rather than just criticize their decision. Also, in my mind to “die with dignity” is to accept death without fear after you feel you have lived the way you wanted to live your life.